As I have begun my junior year of college, I have come to many conclusions in a very short span of time thus far.
Sometimes you are going to want to overbook yourself with everything, from academic affairs to extracurricular obligations to personal relationships.
Sometimes you are going to find yourself in the midst of a frantic meltdown, only a few weeks into the school year, and it seems like literally everyone is staring you down, wondering what the big problem is. Wondering why you can't handle upper-level classes, multiple meetings, and a social life.
You look around you and see people who can micromanage their lives more efficiently than you.
You find yourself investing in an hour-by-hour planner.
You take to heart the scrutiny that your leaders, teachers, and friends put you under.
At some point you have to take a step back and see if all that you're doing is actually achieving what you set out to achieve. Are you getting out of college what you expected? We get so caught up in trying to put forth the best representation of ourselves because we are constantly told to be on our 'A game'...or else.
Or else what? Or else someone else will get their name in the local paper?
Or else we won't immediately make it to our dream job?
Or else we will be beat out by the person who did "better" than us?
Or else someone else might get more recognition than we do?
Or else we won't graduate with honors?
Or else......we won't graduate at all?
When did it become acceptable to make yourself feel better by putting others down? More importantly, when did that become the only route to success?
Sometimes life hits you hard and you find out who your friends are.
Sometimes you want to give up on it all.
Sometimes you decide to make a pact for yourself to only do things that bring glory to God, not you.
It's veraciously pointless to feed your own ego by knocking everyone around you down, so I'm done.
I've decided that I'm not going to try to be better than anyone else.
I'm just me.
